My Life Always S_cked

I didn’t want to act, and I didn’t want to play a boy, but that’s what I did for many years, I played many male roles until I got breasts. I would have been much happier if I had been left alone to be a kid. I usually got at least 4 movie roles a year. I went from one role as a girl, like Pollyanna or the little girl in Mary Poppins and the exorcist: but I also was the little boy in TVs the Rifleman, and in the TV show Flipper, and Patrick in the movie Auntie Mame, or the head good boy in Lord of the Flies. It was so much pressure. There are many child molesters in Hollywood. I was in Lost in Space, and The Sound of Music. I remember watching those TV shows and movies and feeling that actor or actress looked so tired and pale. Since the Moocs kept my money my memory was erased on a regular basis. I would have done without all of it, I was very unhappy. (I won an Academy Award for best actor for Lord of the Flies the same year I won best actress for To Catch a Thief, and Best Supporting Actress for Bob and Carol, Ted and Alice. The same year I was nominated for the Peasant daughter in The Ten Commandments. I think I won that, too. The only award I accepted that year was as Grace Kelly in To Catch a Thief. I’m still on record as the shortest acceptance speech, “You like me, You really, really like me.”)

{I went to public school so you can see why I was always so run-down and tired.} All of that information has been changed online. IMBd, a company I named, has changed dates and names. Wikipedia, a company I thought up and named, has everything about me wrong. )

I missed two years of school, 4th and 5th grade when I was supposed to learn long division. So I had to figure it out on my own: the result turned into “the new math.”

I’m exhausted just thinking about it.

Once I got a girl’s figure, the work continued, only I started playing adults, because adult actresses made 10 times what children make. I was walking in heels and driving in movies when I was 9 to 13. Directors would say, “There’s the gas pedal and that’s the brake and that’s the steering wheel. There; now you know how to drive.”

It was cruel and they gave me growth hormones until I was 6 feet tall. That’s why I’ve always walked with a limp because they took 4 inches out of my right leg, and 2 inches out of my left leg. I was six feet tall when I was the blonde in the second half of All That Jazz. That’s also why my rear end looks all pushed up. Those extra muscles have to go somewhere.

The first I knew I had a part in something was when I got there. Someone would say, this is the part your playing, with no warning or preparation, and NO ONE ever asked if I wanted to do the part!

As I got older and older I played younger and younger women, something I really hated. There’s so much pressure to act like a kid when your middle aged. I hated that as much, or more, than I hated playing adult women beginning with the Maltese Falcon at age 9.

I started directing when I was 11, when I wrote and directed West Side Story. I wrote, directed, co-wrote the songs, choreographed, and acted. Nobody looked out for my welfare. I wrote, choreographed, acted and directed All That Jazz when I was 13 or 14, and I was working 20 hours a day. I was so exhausted I’m still amazed I lived through it. And then I wrote, directed, wrote the songs, and choreographed the broadway musical Hair when I was 15. That was the first time I was asked if I wanted to do that, and took the job only when I was told I could write a musical about whatever I wanted and songs I liked to write, but still, it was so much work, and I was a Junior in High School and I made it to school every day.

I wrote the book Confusion turned to Chaos about that year.

I worked all the time at jobs I didn’t want. I was writing songs with some of the great musicians like Johny Cash, Rogers and Hammerstein, Marvin Hamlisch, Mic Jagger and many others. All my work was erased and all that money was stolen by the moocs. I can only remember it now. The memories have been coming back these past 7 years. All that time working so very hard and I have nothing to show for it.

I’m not lazy or stupid but I am very poor.

I was also being put in dangerous situations just for the amusement of the moocs. I’ve been thrown in naked with wild lions, a grizzly bear and other animals to see how I would react and to film snuff films.

All that time and energy generated an extraordinary income in residuals.

The acting and directing jobs, the song writing and singing continued until I was 55.

I still get residuals to the tune of $100 million a year. I don’t see a dime, I am very poor.

Barack Obama took over stealing my money this past year, so he’s hoping I die, and he’s doing everything in his power to get me killed.  He has succeeded in making me so sick I can’t take care of myself.

Dr. Burry started a bank account for me from an investment he made for me in an investment product I helped him create. Barack Obama stole that money, too. Now he’s the one making my life miserable for his own amusement.

He’s hurting my daughters, too, and I can assume he’s steeling their money as well. He’s torturing my daughter and he was planning on raping her and his own daughters. He’s giving her early onset Alzimers by brainwashing her every night and telling her to “forget everything.” And Obama still has the power of the military behind him to accomplish that goal.

According to Arizona who was one of Barack’s secret service agents, Mr. Obama talks non-stop about killing Michelle and raping his daughters. When he tells people he’s doing that he kills the people he tells if they don’t approve. According to Arizona (that’s what I call him), Michelle wants a divorce but Obama won’t give it to her. Mr. Obama told me “She took a vow till death do us part,” so death is her only way out. She likes sex and instead of being thankful or happy, Mr. Obama told me “women shouldn’t like sex,” so he “has to” kill her. In the meantime he’s stringing Michelle along using the satanic mind control techniques he learned being Commander and Chief. Michelle helped her husband perpetrate the most cruel con on me, my daughters and George Lucas, I can’t trust her either. I feel so alone and powerless; I don’t think I’ll ever get over what they did to me and my daughters. I feel hollow and empty.

They seem so nice. The country has been conned for the eight years he was in office.

He’s torturing my daughter into getting married and he’s keeping her from wanting to see me because he knows she would be a help in my quest for World Peace. He says he loves torturing her EVERY DAY.

One minute he talks like a sane person and the next he sounds completely insane. He has multiple personalities. He is a real life Dr. Jeckel and Mr. Hyde. He should turn himself in. He should stay away from my daughters!

Multiple Personality disorder, Mind control,

About Grace Gardener

I’m being abused by the NSA. My right to privacy is long gone. They have put a homing device and a microphone in my stomach, supposedly attached to my spine so there will be bone conduction. I have an X-ray picture of it. I was told if I take it out I will be killed. Our soldiers all have the same, but they agreed to it. If I go to the ACLU to complain, my phone call will be intercepted. If I confide in a friend about what’s happening to me, she’ll be killed. The NSA has brainwashed my daughters into not trusting me. They’ve been working on torturing them every week for the past 15 years. When I left in my RV they loved and trusted me, but now that I haven’t seen them in so long that now they’re afraid of me. When I was there, living with or near them, even though they were being tortured to hate me (that’s true), once they saw me again they were fine. But I can’t even call them. I know most of my calls are diverted, and I know when they try to answer, that’s diverted, too. But I don’t try hard and I can’t talk to them about anything meaningful because I know they’ll be tortured for many hours. And then they’ll be tortured, drugged and electrocuted to forget and when I talk to them again they’ll say, “It never happened.” Trying to be a good, peace-loving American gets me treated like a criminal. The military wants WW3 and I don’t, so to teach me a lesson if I get on a plane, twenty people get kicked off so I can get harassed during the flights, and then the flights gets delayed so the rest of the hundred passengers are inconvenienced. Every move I make, every breath I take, they are watching me, hurting me and hassling me. The Military already has their list of soldiers who are slated to be the first to die in WW3 and General John Kelly said they will do everything in their power to stop me from stopping them. I don’t know how delaying flights for three hours and inconveniencing dozens of people stops me from doing anything. The Military teaches its troops to be rude and inconsiderate, and to hate good people who pray for peace. They say I’m subversive because I don’t want war. Sometimes the airline has to send another plane to accommodate all the people they kick off a flight. That costs them money. Airlines should have the right to ask about fabricating excuses for changing seats, etc. They should have the right to refuse Military baby antics. You notice the way we left the Kurds to be annihilated and we released Isis into Turkey so when something starts up, we can send nuclear missiles. Notice Trump didn’t send our troops home, rather on to the next potential nuclear war site. There are potential wars in six other countries and three bogus attacks on our people, in this country, so we “have to retaliate,” just like Afghanistan. I knew about that, too. A country that attacks its own people as a pretense to start a war is subversive and traitorous. I wrote a memo and I told Pres. Bush about the attack on the trade towers at least a year before nine eleven. Three thousand people died that day and he has killed more than thirty thousand Americans since then just to keep his secret. The killing will get worse. I just want this madness to stop. Trump isn’t a pacifist, he’s an Annihilist. Pence is no better, he thinks Armageddon will resurrect Christ: the opposite is true. Christ will not come if we start Armageddon. That’s a myth and a lie, like everything else. Wake up America. About George Lucas- NSA Agents are doing the same thing to George Lucas. I was told no one really wants to hurt George, but they “have to.” George and everyone involved with Obama must learn he's not the man you think he is. But they think he’s a nice guy so they feel badly about it. Well that’s something, I guess. But the Government and other cults should not have round-the-clock accessibility to agents who are trained killers and have had their free will taken away through torture and electroshock. The best agents have had their personality split, so one personality takes over to carry out “orders” while the original personality watches helplessly. There’s a better way to run the military, and I was about to get through to put forth my ideas when the order came through to kill the three Generals who wanted to listen to me: and to kill six special agents who had been listening to me. I listen to these guys and I wonder if they have any feelings at all? I know they do even though they’re not “allowed to.” They’re not “allowed to” complain, either, under fear of death. If they try to retire, they’re not de-programmed, they are killed! I watched the Clint Eastwood movie American Sniper about Chris Kyle and I’m sure I commented on it a lot, but my readership has grown significantly and I know I’m monitored and it’s the guys doing the monitoring, who I’m trying to help. Even tough guys need a little help sometimes. I wonder if the death of Cris Kyle, played by Bradley Cooper, was planned the way it was to get me to say something about it. Everyone in the NSA knows what happened. Chris was killed because he got out. Tragically, Chris seemed to be capable of healing himself with the help of his family and still he was murdered. The man who murdered him was under orders. True! I have many, many confirmations on that statement. The judge sentenced Eddie Ray Routh, Chris’s murderer, to life in prison without parole. The movie writeup says - “U.S. Navy SEAL Chris Kyle (Bradley Cooper) takes his sole mission -- protect his comrades -- to heart and becomes one of the most lethal snipers in American history. His pinpoint accuracy not only saves countless lives.” Back to my dilemma, I can’t get in touch with anyone for fear they will be tortured or killed. You think, “I thought the US didn’t torture?” Well we do. My daughters and I are born and raised here. We are good people, we’re exceptionally good people and the NSA has a HUGE problem with that. The people who give the orders want war and we want peace, and they’re making us the bad guys? The only emails that get through to me are business and junk. Supposedly I get comments on my website that don’t come through, and I have to wonder if our military goes around killing anyone who tries to contact me? My phone rings all the time but not here. This was true when I was in NJ, too. Nobody got through to me. The call is sent elsewhere and other people pick it up pretending to be me and the women pretending to be me are nasty bitches. If I call someone and straighten something out, I find out later that the conversation never happened, I was really talking to someone in the NSA, and I have to get back to square one. Most times things are so impossible, I give up. I escaped my ex-husbands satanic cult only to find myself embroiled in the government’s cult. A much thicker, stickier web. They have kept my money from me so I can’t even get an apartment. That’s stealing, but they’re the military so nothing is illegal, not murder or theft. I feel if I call someone for help he or she will be killed or badly hurt. Just being my friend or talking to me can get you sick with cancer or dead. I think people who I have helped, or who have asked to help me, need to go to the press to tell them what a pickle I’m in . There are many people who have offered to help me over the years. Many have been killed. I don’t understand how a kid in a uniform can break into Steve Jobs’ house and inject his brain with liquid smoke, or some other carcinogen: and if he questions those orders his buddy will be told to kill him. They have to kill each other all the time. It’s so f_ked up I can’t stand it. Neither can the Agents. They don’t realize that “under orders” is meaningless. If they’re caught they’ll be tried for murder. Steve Jobs was a great man. No one, no politician, and no officer, has the right to murder any citizen, especially one who makes this country proud. If you know someone in the NSA it’s your responsibility to let your congressman know what this country is doing to him. They’re being treated barbarically. If you know my daughters please call them to lend an ear, because their memories are being erased in an attempt to make them cold and heartless and they’re suffering. Their memories are being erased and replaced with more horrible lies, and their ability to reason is gone. They used to be the smartest women on the planet. If you know George Lucas do the same. The man we were both speaking with, who George considers a friend, ordered some horrific things done to George. They are trying to change his personality so he won’t like me, or so I won’t like him, like that could ever happen, but in the meantime his health and his mind will be suffering. Listening to him will be helpful. He also has a homing device and a microphone planted in him. His whole house is wired because he knows me. If you’re a parent whose kid wants to join special forces let him know what he’ll be joining. I had someone with me get killed because he couldn’t kill his friend. I’m serious. Watch the Manchurian Candidate, especially the part where people are being murdered, but the men see themselves at a flower show. That’s what it’s like. A Clock Work Orange shows how it’s done. And Mel Gibson’s Conspiracy Theory shows the aftermath. NSA guys read my books and my blog because I may be the only friend you’ve got. I’d love to be able to take suggestions. I know I have to get all lawyered up, I’d like to sue the government for defamation of character and theft. That’s something I used to be able to do, but I’m powerless now. What you can do. God changed my name to Grace. I changed it legally in 2007. My slave name was Lynn. I was born Lynn Pezzutti, then I married Jay McDermott and I became Lynn McDermott, then I married Peter Mickelsen (now deceased) and became Lynn Mickelsen. Most of my friends in the entertainment industry think I’m Lynn Mickelsen. So now I’m Grace Gardener, and while I’m not a slave, I’m a prisoner of the state. If you’re a lawyer, see if you can get something going. I was thinking Amal Clooney could be very helpful. If you know someone in the ACLU ask them to read this blog. If you’re in my family, Doherty, Murray, Sullivan or Kelly and remember me from my Anti-War days and establishing Earth Day maybe there’s something you want to do. Let the NY Times know I’d like this published as a letter to the Editor. Publish first, contact later. Send a copy or link to your News. Good Luck, God Bless you. Rise Up! Think Peace. THE NSA AND THE MOOCS WON'T LET ANYONE GET THROUGH TO ME. THEY MAY EVEN HURT YOU IF YOU TRY. See the pages in the tabs of this blog, Grace Gardener, and, A Little About Lynn Mickelsen. If you know me and I don't get back to you, then the email was intercepted. Never talk to anyone claiming to be me without asking questions to be sure. All site posts beginning 4/1/16 will be on I’m not doing this for attention. I have 107 broken bones, zero disks in my back, and I’m exhausted. I need to get through to the people who knew me for credibility: but the NSA blocks my every move. I have to have the same acknowledgement and respect for my judgement I had while I was a ghost director in Hollywood and when I was CEO of the Rand Corp. Rand has been able to keep my work anonymous and credited to other people so they can collect my pay and residuals. They figured as long as they’re erasing my memory, and taking credit for my inventions, music, acting and directing; they may as well keep the money I earned. Also, the money would be proof that I did the work, so they’ve kept me poor all of my life. The reason the conspirators made plans in front of me was because they were assured I would “Never Remember” them, their visit and the things they planned. They talked in a kind of code that I have since figured out. I would have turned them in after the meeting had I been allowed to remember. I have to operate the way I do to keep away from my captors. GRR taught me most of the tactics I use. (Now he won’t help because his memory of me is implanted.) I know it angers some corrupt NSA Officers, but it’s a fact that I was a prisoner and slave at the Rand Corporation, and the NSA helped and still helps to keep me that way. I have to make evasive maneuvers to keep me, my daughters, this country and the world safe. Meanwhile I have no where to turn. I still feel like a candle in the wind. My name was Lynn Mickelsen while I was a prisoner in a blue house and slave of a “club” based in northern New Jersey. If you know me PLEASE DON'T TRY TO CONTACT ME THROUGH THE RAND CORPORATION OR ANY OF MY FORMER EMPLOYERS OR ANY CONTACT FROM MORE THAN 12 YEARS AGO. I know 90% of what I know because plans for Armageddon were alwazs talked about at RAND. Some people know the cult know it with a name similar to The Builder Berg Society or the Skull and Dagger Society. There's a HUGE bounty on my head that the cult I escaped from has no intention of paying. The plan is to have me killed and then to kill the person trying to collect the bounty. I thought up the plan and the amount because I thought it was going to be the plot in a movie. I told the people who wanted the plan, "This is one movie no one will want to see." In short, anyone who kills me will be killed within 24 hours and will never see a dime. Now I'm RVing but I’m still a prisoner in that I can't get in touch with anyone, and no one can get in touch with me, except in person. I found out about the other life I’d been living during a grueling five-hour conversation I detail in my Book, ‘the Conversation’ We'll have World Peace once we abolish child abuse. My view of Apocalypse has no battle, no war, no army. I believe the knowledge in ‘the Conversation’ is enough to save the world. The blog lists just some of the accomplishments I achieved as a slave, to let everyone I've helped over the past sixty years, who I am. I will finally claim my life! If you’re a George Lucas fan you may remember some of these strange stories that involve him. I met George on the set of American Graffiti; we got engaged when the movie wrapped. I was taken away and George was told I was dead. Five years later I was hired to figure out how to make Luke Skywalker’s farm vehicle fly. The people who handled me (owned me) forgot that I had worked for this director once before on American Graffiti and they told him I was dead. I arrived and solved Lucas’s problem for him and he tearfully remembered me and told me what had happened five years before. I stayed on the set of Star Wars long enough to name the Star Wars characters and solve another animatronics problem with Chewy’s costume. I was told it was time to leave and started to follow my jailers the way I had been programmed to, when George asked, “When will I see you again?” I began to say, “Oh, you’ll see me again,” but I realized I wasn’t certain of that because once before, when we got engaged, I never saw him again. So I turned around and started walking back toward Lucas and I asked, “How about now? Can I stay with you now? Because I don’t know when I’ll be able to see you again.” George thought a second and agreed that I should stay. As I was walking back to him I saw his expression change and looked over my shoulder to see the man I had been following holding a gun on me. I kept walking because now I was sure that the story Lucas had told me about what happened five years ago, was going to happen again and I couldn’t allow that. Someone had obviously been playing with my life, and I couldn’t have that, so I kept walking toward Lucas and away from the man with the gun. Lucas’s expression changed again, this time his face was filled with fear and horror. I turned around and now there were three men holding guns on George Lucas. There was only about 20 feet of desert between us but I had to go with them in order to save Lucas’s life. I‘m still trying to walk those 20 feet.
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