Forever

I was watching the Country Music Awards and there was commercial for a show called Forever which was a show about torture and S&M. It was horrifying. As you know I was tortured all my life while I was the prisoner of a Satanic cult. I can tell you I do not believe anyone would willingly submit to torture.

Some years ago I was asked to name a book written by a woman who watched porn. What she said she did was watch the segment and then write it down in slow-motion detail. She’d then bring those stories to the cult meetings and let the men read them, and they liked them, so the cult decided to turn the stories into a book. The woman told me she had never had sex and was not married and had no children. So I asked her why she decided to write about sex and she said she was looking for something to write about and she had no life experiences and felt she had a knack for description and found that there was an audience for porn. She said she had 100 stories. When I asked how long each story was, she told me four or five pages. I said that was too long for one book. I suggested she turn it into two books of 50 stories each and call the first book, Fifty Shades of Gray and the second one, Fifty More Shades of Gray. She thought both titles were ridiculous and hated both of them. I told her she’d never find a better title than Fifty Shades of Gray. She said I was narcissistic. She finally relented and said she’d call the first book, Fifty Shades of Gray, but the second she would call, More Fifty Shades Of Gray, as that was a much better title.

Everyone in the cult was to buy two cases of books when the book hit the market; and then the public would buy the book and it would be a bestseller. And then the second book would come out and the same thing would happen. (Cult members are required to buy cases of any book or album that the cult wants to become a hit.) The woman who brought the author was the woman who owned me. They giggled about the plans for future books saying that would be descriptions of torture, and the author said, “I don’t know how you like that stuff?”

“Me? What makes you think I like torture?” She thought I liked torture because it was me that she was watching being tortured in the torture videos that were scattered all over the web for the enjoyment of those in the cult. Since I didn’t know the cult existed and why I was so sick all the time, I didn’t know what she and Rita were laughing about. Later, in 2003 I was told about the book, and that it was going to be about me and I was the one who was being tortured, and she would get the world to enjoy watching me be tortured and reading about it. It’s a sickening and horrifying thought and one I don’t even want to admit to, but it seems that now in 2014 it’s all coming true. I was told that at the same time that the torture books would hit the market there would be torture on television. I didn’t believe anything in the Conversation and I certainly didn’t believe that. Rita talked about advertising on television during prime time and even on Day Time to get people used to it. Rita reminded me it was all about blurring the lines between good and evil and letting people think that it was something normal and perhaps they would believe it was something good. She was hoping to get people interested in torture in order to recruit more members for the Satanic Church.

I was appalled to see an advertisement for torture during a family show like The Country Music Awards. The advertisement is entirely too long and shows too much detail. I can’t believe no one has commented on that. Miley was in the news and the main source of buzz on the morning shows for weeks, but torture doesn’t raise an eyebrow. Torture is not something normal, nor is it something good. Torture is something abhorrent and totally evil. It should be avoided like the plague. And the fact that the viewing audience is so numb to the violence on television that they would allow a program on torture to even exist, is disgusting beyond comprehension. I implore everyone to write to the FCC and tell them how sick and tired you are of the violence on television and in commercials. Violent programs should not be on until after 10 O’clock, that has always been the rule in television. Additionally, television commercials about something violent should not be on television before 10 PM.

The Cults are telling their viewers that they own television and they don’t have to abide by long-standing guidelines. The sociopaths who run CBS and Fox, air depraved lies and commentary as news. Both stations are riddled with shows displaying disgusting images of mutilated bodies and corpses. It sickens me.

Torture is NOT entertainment!

Rita was fond of telling everyone that I liked torture, and for some reason I can’t fathom, many people believed her. Shame on them. They need counseling!

About Grace Gardener

THE NSA AND THE MOOCS WON'T LET ANYONE GET THROUGH TO ME. THEY MAY EVEN HURT YOU IF YOU TRY. See the pages in the tabs of this blog, Grace Gardener, and, A Little About Lynn Mickelsen. If you know me and I don't get back to you, then the email was intercepted. Never talk to anyone claiming to be me without asking questions to be sure. All site posts beginning 4/1/16 will be on Grace-Gardener.org. I’m not doing this for attention. I have 107 broken bones, zero disks in my back, and I’m exhausted. I need to get through to the people who knew me for credibility: but the NSA blocks my every move. I have to have the same acknowledgement and respect for my judgement I had while I was a ghost director in Hollywood and when I was CEO of the Rand Corp. Rand has been able to keep my work anonymous and credited to other people so they can collect my pay and residuals. They figured as long as they’re erasing my memory, and taking credit for my inventions, music, acting and directing; they may as well keep the money I earned. Also, the money would be proof that I did the work, so they’ve kept me poor all of my life. The reason the conspirators made plans in front of me was because they were assured I would “Never Remember” them, their visit and the things they planned. They talked in a kind of code that I have since figured out. I would have turned them in after the meeting had I been allowed to remember. I have to operate the way I do to keep away from my captors. GRR taught me most of the tactics I use. (Now he won’t help because his memory of me is implanted.) I know it angers some corrupt NSA Officers, but it’s a fact that I was a prisoner and slave at the Rand Corporation, and the NSA helped and still helps to keep me that way. I have to make evasive maneuvers to keep me, my daughters, this country and the world safe. Meanwhile I have no where to turn. I still feel like a candle in the wind. https://youtu.be/uw6CIxD1pHo My name was Lynn Mickelsen while I was a prisoner in a blue house and slave of a “club” based in northern New Jersey. If you know me PLEASE DON'T TRY TO CONTACT ME THROUGH THE RAND CORPORATION OR ANY OF MY FORMER EMPLOYERS OR ANY CONTACT FROM MORE THAN 9 YEARS AGO. People who tried doing this are being killed. Some people know the cult know it with a name similar to The Builder Berg Society or the Skull and Dagger Society. There's a HUGE bounty on my head that the cult I escaped from has no intention of paying. The plan is to have me killed and then to kill the person trying to collect the bounty. I thought up the plan and the amount because I thought it was going to be the plot in a movie. I told the people who wanted the plan, "This is one movie no one will want to see." In short, anyone who kills me will be killed within 24 hours and will never see a dime. Now I'm RVing but I’m still a prisoner in that I can't get in touch with anyone, and no one can get in touch with me, except in person. I found out about the other life I’d been living during a grueling five-hour conversation I detail in my Book, ‘the Conversation’ The reason I knew nothing about my own life was because I suffered selective amnesia - induced by the cult that owned me - with drugs, torture and electricity. 'The Conversation' is available in paperback at Blurb.com. The ebook is free. I worked nights and weekends naming products, bands and internet services, or anything else the "club" wanted me to do. I would wake up in the morning and remember nothing about the work and meetings, and I never received ANY money. I could only remember my 9 - 5 job at a bank. I’ve written the eBook, ‘Garden of the Light,’ as a lighter, inspirational compliment to the eBooks – ‘the Conversation,’ and, 'the Truth about Lynn Mickelsen’ which are intended to shed new, totally different light on the current world situation and change the world for the better. Apocalypse is a Greek word meaning, ‘the Revealing of Ancient Knowledge.’ I consider the book, ‘the Conversation,’ as Apocalypse because it reveals the ancient knowledge. We'll have World Peace once we abolish child abuse. My view of Apocalypse has no battle, no war, no army. I believe the knowledge in ‘the Conversation’ is enough to save the world. The blog grace-gardener.org lists just some of the accomplishments I achieved as a slave, to let everyone I've helped over the past sixty years, who I am. I will finally claim my life! https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/380321 If you’re a George Lucas fan you may remember some of these strange stories that involve him. I met George on the set of American Graffiti; we got engaged when the movie wrapped. I was taken away and George was told I was dead. Five years later I was hired to figure out how to make Luke Skywalker’s farm vehicle fly. The people who handled me (owned me) forgot that I had worked for this director once before on American Graffiti and they told him I was dead. I arrived and solved Lucas’s problem for him and he tearfully remembered me and told me what had happened five years before. I stayed on the set of Star Wars long enough to name the Star Wars characters and solve another animatronics problem with Chewy’s costume. I was told it was time to leave and started to follow my jailers the way I had been programmed to, when George asked, “When will I see you again?” I began to say, “Oh, you’ll see me again,” but I realized I wasn’t certain of that because once before, when we got engaged, I never saw him again. So I turned around and started walking back toward Lucas and I asked, “How about now? Can I stay with you now? Because I don’t know when I’ll be able to see you again.” George thought a second and agreed that I should stay. As I was walking back to him I saw his expression change and looked over my shoulder to see the man I had been following holding a gun on me. I kept walking because now I was sure that the story Lucas had told me about what happened five years ago, was going to happen again and I couldn’t allow that. Someone had obviously been playing with my life, and I couldn’t have that, so I kept walking toward Lucas and away from the man with the gun. Lucas’s expression changed again, this time his face was filled with fear and horror. I turned around and now there were three men holding guns on George Lucas. There was only about 20 feet of desert between us but I had to go with them in order to save Lucas’s life. So, if you’re a fan of George Lucas you may remember someone being stolen off the Star Wars set at gunpoint. That was me. Years later I was abducted and stolen from the Academy Awards. You may remember that incident - that was me. Years later I was abducted and stolen from the Elton John’s post Oscar Party that benefits his AIDs foundation. You may remember that incident - that was me. Years later Harrison Ford and George Lucas devised a plan to steal me off of the set of The Fugitive. This time I was shot with a coma drug. They used a hypodermic needle that went through my coat and slacks and into my thigh. Two bogus ambulance men came in a stolen ambulance and took me away. The only other time I saw George face to face was during the making of Howard the Duck. George Lucas and Steven Spielberg made that ridiculous movie to try to rescue me again, in case you were wondering why they made that movie. I was supposed to see Lucas again on a set of Indiana Jones but this time it was George who was drugged and abducted. This makes 8 times George Lucas tried to rescue me. I’ve spoken with Lucas on the phone only a few times over the past 40 years, and those phone calls and the conversations we had while shooting American Graffiti, are what makes up Yoda’s philosophies and Star Wars 7 – the Force Awakens. The reason the people who owned me don’t allow George and I to get together is because they don’t want World Peace. War makes them rich. The greed of a handful of people keep the word in the turmoil it’s in. The people in the entertainment industry know me as the woman with no memory and no name. If you want to know more about me, check out my blog www.grace-gardener.org; or read my free ebooks the Truth about Lynn Mickelsen, and, the Conversation. I‘m still trying to walk those 20 feet.
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